Aside from eating people, today I’m feeling like the walking dead. I got 4 hours of sleep last night because I was so pumped up about work (honestly!) and I couldn’t fall asleep. Then today I needed to wake up early to help my brother move which was such a joy, hauling stuff in muggy humid weather with 4 hours of sleep. SO happy that’s done! I then enjoyed one of the best feeling naps that I can remember, and now it’s time to figure out what’s on my hit list for food tonight.. after I finish answering emails of course I’ve been getting THE best emails lately!! Love checking my inbox to happiness.

PS – I know some ladies read my blog so check this out. I was reading Psychology Today (great magazine if you’re ever bored) and they had an article about the types of bodies men like best for women, and why.. it was a cool read. Plus made me feel even better about my curves! I already love my curves, I know I could be more fit but hey I’m happy, I enjoy my life and I feel sexy so that’s all that counts baby!

It’s a beautiful day. It’s a little muggy but you know what? There’s no snow. So rejoice that it could be a lot crappier! . So Jack and I are hanging out in my bunked up backyard right now, it’s being redone with a ton of sod just for little Jack! The reason I call him my bunny all the time is because when I first adopted Jack he bounced around in the snow and the grass like he was a bunny. He wouldn’t walk like a normal puppy he just jumped and bounced everywhere! I love my little dude

(No I don’t share my root beers with him.. though he wishes!)

This is me as I write this post Cheers to an odd life!

Dear Diary;

What’s been going on in my world the past few months? A whole lot of crazy. A lot of crazy that I’m sure one day I will look back on and laugh, or that will make a great chapter in my autobiography! Anyway, the past few months definitely warrants for a drink while I blog about it.

Some people have asked why I’ve been a little reserved here or there, compared to my normal online self. The answer, it’s been a little difficult to feel comfortable posting as openly as I always do with a Mr Alliston S reading all the little details of my life and taking them and screwing things up for me in any way possible. Aside from the multiple (and I mean, about 15) daily emails I get from this guy, the disgusting things he has said in these emails (including ripping off James tattoo for kidnapping me and forcing me to pose for my website), he’s gone on to email the footwear company I did some promo shots for. Things like this that are making checking my email or @ mentions on twitter a little… interesting to say the least.

Here’s the story. Alliston was contacted by a Brenda Clara Sylvester, a faker who’s stolen some of my many candids freely available on my site, just like the one you see above. (This is why I’ve started watermarking my photos, and I’m sure the same reason other girls do it too.) They hit it off, fell in e-love, and he’s proposed to “her”. Of course though, since she’s overseas she needs money for plane fare to get to America for their wedding. Yeah.. it’s one of those.

Somewhere along the line, he’s gotten ahold of my email, twitter, and knows about my site. Apparently, this is my “work”, and this Brenda’s profile is my “real” profile. This isn’t new to me, I’ve been Jessica, Brycie, Bryci Miller, BryciXimena, Mary, and MANY other names that fakers have used to claim that that profile is my personal one. I don’t even try to convince people much anymore, if you want to believe that the person you’re dealing with (who won’t get on webcam for you, and who just needs money) is really me, then have at ‘er. It’s not fair, but it’s not my battle. It’d be much more than a full time job just dealing with all of that.

Anyway, I’ve blocked his countless emails to me. I’m past his empty threats, James and I used to laugh, then shrug, now all of his emails are just filtered straight into my trash never to be read. Thankfully I finally feel past that bump in the road. I just wanted to let everyone know that I’m still here, I don’t plan on going anywhere, and I still love what I do even though I have to deal with some crazies out there sometimes. I try my best to be positive always, because life isn’t worth living if you’re upset, and really there’s no real reason to be upset unless it’s something life threatening (like illness etc) right? The internet is such a silly silly place. It’s my fun little world where I get to play out my kinky fantasies. I’m here for a good time

OK, it’s time for Big Brother wahoo!! I love letting myself get addicted to that show. It’s weird how I can’t stand any amount of drama in my life, yet I’ll watch dramalicious shows like that. The Glass House is almost on the cutting board for me though because it’s SO hard to watch because the amount of drama! Also, if you’re still reading this… <3 ehugs and kisses to you, you’re a real friend/fan for listening to a girl vent. Love you guys!!

PS – This is the 2nd edition of this blog post. The first one was twice this long and a LOT more heated and detailed. No I didn’t delete it because it told too much.. honestly my stupid blogging software screwed up and deleted it! I’m just much too tired to go through it all again, and honestly it felt very good to get the frustration off my chest, so it wasn’t really about blogging it to the world, just getting it out.

To my dear Alliston, you have 2 choices, I hope you smarten up and take one. Here they are:
1) Come to tomorrow nights camshow, and put up or shut up. Ask me LIVE if I’m Brenda or planning to marry you. Let’s have a grown up conversation and get this finished shall we?
2) Since you think Brenda and I are the same person, and that brycii567@yahoo.com is my “other” email address, just stop emailing my askbryci account. Go communicate with the faker and live in your fantasy little world, enjoy your e-wedding without me.
-Also, please note that although I do know your real first and last name, your real address, and almost everything REAL about you.. I still have not posted it on my blog for the world to see, and for google to get it’s hands on, because it would fuck up your life a little bit, especially since you’ve been charged with harassment in the past. Even though you’re fucking with my personal life by emailing past companies I’ve worked for. How about you try to be the grown ass man you claim to be?

Even though today is Monday, it’s a good day. I am spending my day running errands and tying up loose ends. I get to ship out sexy signed photos to fans who ordered them on the weekend, and I might even pick up some sushi along the way! I hope you are having a great day I can’t wait to hang out with you guys again on WebCam soon! xxB

I’ve been feeling 2 very strong feelings lately. Proud, and incredibly annoying/frusterated/passionate all mixed into 1. I just don’t know the one word for all 3 of those emotions mixed into one.. how about annusterate. Sure. Anyway, why? Well, proud because of what I’ve made with my website and my modeling. I just started out as some shy girl who didn’t know a damn thing about computers or websites or anything, and taught myself coding and graphic design (of course with the help of my wonderful webmaster James), and we’ve created my amazing website Bryci.com from day one, from scratch. Just us, a camera, and a computer. It’s always been just us, and it always will be. I will NEVER sell my site to anyone, or bring anyone else in to the mix. It’s my baby

I’m also proud that I’ve made all my modelling decisions to make ME happy, and no one else. I’ve had haters, I’ve had people who try to talk me out of this or that, or try to bring me down for whatever reason. And you know what? I’m still and always will be 100% happy with each decision I’ve made. Because I’ve done it for ME! Ultimately, I have to live my life 24/7, not anyone else, so why should I make decisions based on what someone else might think? Pfffffft that’s just silly For all the haters, lovers, fans, or people trying to bring me down, please know that I am happy and I’m going to keep on keepin’ on

I’ve had people claim they are me. I’ve had people claim they are my webmaster, or they own my site. I’ve had fakers scam people out of money, and I’ve had people claim they know me or knew me in the past. Has it been annoying or frusterating? Yup. Has it ever made me want to quit? Nope. My website isn’t my job. My website has become my lifestyle. It’s just a part of me, a thing I do every day. I would do it for zero money (and did, for a few years before I opened my members side because I just amassed so much content), but need to pay bills and enjoy doing this full time. I love my site, my life, my fans and friends I’ve made through doing this. Get ready for granny porn because I’m not going anywhere! hahahha ok ok, maybe I’ll transfer into full time photographer when my wrinkles get to be gnarly so to save your eyes from that. Hehehe

I’ve always said, do what you love. You spend most of your life working, so why would you do something you hate? For the money? Come on, what kind of life is that? We don’t know how short or long our life will be, so don’t spend time being doing something you don’t enjoy, no matter what it is. Love your life because it’s yours, you are the only one who can make you truly happy, and we only have this life (that we know of) so make it as rockstar as you can and want!

Pep talk over xx